Cast, away

Sunday, November 16

Skinned.

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it's 230am sunday morning. i am barely 1/3 done with my biochem studying and i honestly didnt understand what i just read. yet, i have to move on cause i'm so hard press for time and i'm about to suffocate.

been so distracted the entire day and here i am now, freaking out in the night. gawd, i never ever learn do i?

anatomy paper 2 was horrid. i'm pretty sure i'm gonna fail this paper, which mean it'll most probably be a definite fail for my overall anatomy. i hate this crap. i dont think i ever failed anything before. maybe one of those minor test but.. i never failed an exam before.. and freak, it really sucks.

had a sudden outburst in the shower earlier and i couldnt stop crying/laughing/crying/laughing. to be honest, i couldnt and still cant pinpoint what i was crying about. (i knew i was laughing cause i thought my sudden onset of tears was ridiculous.)

i hate the next 4 days of my life.

2:12 AM; 2 chatters

Thursday, November 13

I don't understand.

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so i finished part 1 of my anatomy paper yesterday and there's part2 tomorrow. of which i have not started nor touched the books/slides since the start of this semester. and right now, i can barely open my eyes, an image of my bed is just swimming round in circles in my head

what the hell is wrong with me?

why do i always find myself in such a predicament.
being so last minute and then freaking out and doing all night-ers.

i tried finding excuses in the past by telling myself it's the course, and it isnt what i really want. but hell, even if i were doing medicine, would i really be any different?

i don't understand...
:(

1:05 PM; 3 chatters

Monday, November 10

Ill

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dee is ill. she has been having runny diarrhea for the past 2 days.
J brought her to the vet today, and apparently, there was a recent hit of Parvo virus... and if the dog was brought in a week ago.. dee might have gotten it.

91% death of puppies hit by Parvo.

i'm scared. we're scared..

i have a freaking paper later in the afternoon, and all i wanna do now is to watch her and make sure she's alright. freak

please pray for her, whatever god/s you believe in, please pray and cross your fingers for her.

should anything happen to her (touch wood), i would die..

1:31 AM; 6 chatters

Saturday, November 8

Crap it's here.

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taking the time as 12.27am, i have 2 days till my first paper, and GREAT. i'm not even 30% done for that paper, and i barely or HAVE NOT started studying for my other papers. and no, i have not even printed my notes for biochemistry.

and mind you, i probably went to school like at most, 20 days this semester.

crap crap crap.

returned the keys of my old place to the agent today after the final round of cleaning, clearing and fixing much thanks to jx.
now i'm starting to miss that place...:(
and did i mention that i BROKE A MIRROR TODAY?
ugh.

i'm jinxed.

okay, think happy thoughts.. dee has learnt, and mastered the art of climbing up and down stairs using those little paws and short legs of hers.
she has learnt sit, and is in the process of learning fetch..
gosh she's amazing.

i'm procrastinating. CRAP

12:26 AM; 3 chatters

Thursday, November 6

Yeah.

All along the eastern shore
Put your circuits in the sea
This is what the world is for
Making electricity
You can feel it in your mind
Oh you can do it all the time
Plug it in and change the world
You are my electric girl.

Ooh girl
Shock me like an electric eel
Baby girl
Turn me on with your electric feel

2:49 AM; 0 chatters

Sunday, November 2

She's a dreamer.

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amazing. dee is AMAZING!
it's day 3.. and she has been house-broken by day 2 yesterday! all she took was ... 2 days to be taught where to poo and urine.
she's really a hell of a smart pup.

been to pet shops the past few days, and we get the same story over and over... she's way too young to be separated from her mum. the typical separation occurs ard.. 7/8 weeks. and dee JUST turned 5 weeks today! annoying, inconsiderate breeders...

despite the 1st/2nd day of night whining, i think dee is adapting pretty well! intially she only dared to sleep in her kennel or near it.. but now, she's sleeping right under my feet!

gosh... she's such a charmer.

11:13 AM; 3 chatters